So I am back in the work place and I have mixed emotions about it all really. Firstly I am not too sure if I am the right person for the job...I have so far not been able to do anything that has been asked of me, most of the stuff I haven't done since I was a junior office person, so like 7 years ago!!! Luckily I have awesome friends that I can call on to send me pointers and directions. Secondly I have not had hand over from the previous person as they let her go cause they didn't want me to have her telling me what to do cause she was shit!!!! So I have to start from the bottom and work my way through it all, trying to make it my own, but also staying within the barriers that a bureaucratic environment offers LOL Thirdly its a medical environment and I have never worked in a profession like this before so I have NO IDEA what people are talking about, I have noticed that its all a load of acronym's so I have kinda been piecing it all together SLOWLY and I think I am getting the gist of it and someday I will totally be able to watch an episode of All Saints and totally know what they are on about. I said that to one of the nurses and he told me those shows are all shit and they don't even make sense to him and he has been a nurse for like nearly 15 years! WTF! Fourthly everyone in the office is in their mid to late 40's or older!! Seriously one of the ladies told me she was "going through the change of life" I asked her if she wanted me to turn the air con up for her LOL She laughed and said no she was just letting me know in case I was wondering why she was sweating!!
So basically stuck with a bunch of oldies that have really no idea what I will be doing or what I should be doing cause the boss is away and even when he is back they said he wont really know and wont really have time to tell me anyway! So I have admin contact people and a "supervisor" but they are situated in Brissy and I have to go down to meet them, but apparently this meet n greet wont be happening until late November, so at least a month till I meet my supervisor! And I have already been booked in to take courses and one of those is Web Publishing WTF! These courses will be happening in Brissy, so this is a good thing I guess in that I will have free travel to Brissy and Rubie can see her Dad, but I haven't actually done anything yet so how do they know I am worth it? They all seem to have this faith me and keep telling me they picked me for a reason, but I am not too sure...is it because I have been out of work for soo long and have zero confidence in myself? Will it take a while to find my work mojo? If so is there anyway I can speed this process up?
On the bright side of it all I am not working just to make a fat man rich, or for a boring or bleak service for the health system, far far far from it. I am actually working for Retrieval Health Services QLD and that is all emergency medicine/services, they have developed all the procedures and services for emergency. I could totally go into detail and explain it all but your eyes will start to glaze over and you will stop reading my blog! LOL no not really I will actually be dealing with doctors/nurses and the emergencies that they assist with over the phone and on the teleconference/consult, yes they can see patients in rural hospitals that need to be transported to us or to bne. And all the 000 calls have to be logged with us so we can make sure everyone is following emergency procedure etc. So on my first day I got to see blood and guts!! YAY me!! So pretty intense day to day happenings - totally beats chasing down an outstanding debtor - but makes the day go really really quickly and before I know it 2pm has come round and its time to leave to go get little Rubie who has been left in the care of complete strangers

But so far seems to have no problem with it at all. I drop her off and she waves good bye to start playing with her new friends and toys. Then when I come to pick her up she is all smiles and cuddles. Her minders think she is the greatest kid in the world and I tend to agree, but I am bias! So yeah no dramas with Rubie being in care, I am too busy during the day to think about her and when I pick her up she is happy and cheery so I am guessing she likes it? I had a little guilty attack the other night thinking that I am doing the wrong thing and I am being a slave to the dollar, when really I should be taking this time in my life to be with her and not worrying about money etc, but really I guess if we want to have a life beyond hanging out at home then I have to work. So I am trying to block the anxious and guilt ridden feelings out so I can stay positive and up beat about it all.
So when you hear the sirens think of your pal Lamestar typing/filing/faxing all the paperwork that goes along with it LOL
Sounds like an awesome challenge sista, just what you need. Rubie sounds like she's having fun and like you said, you're doing it for your future! Go you! What an inspiration :-)
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